Thursday, April 2, 2009

I'm back on the bandwagon

I fell off the wagon (when Abby's went in the shop) about drinking water only and I've long been off the healthy food wagon. I'm back on. I figure the only way I will feel better is if *I* make the effort. I'm the person that tells you to get back up immediately after falling off and I'm doing that with myself. I am the only person who can allow myself to be depressed. The medicine gives me wicked hot flashes and I'm not going ot deal with it so I'm changing it.

I haven't had any dr pepper this week so far and I'm going to keep it that way. I am trying to cook before I go to work so I'm not buying anything. I'm determined to lose weight and I expect to look cute for my divorce hearing. :) I'm not looking for a miracle but progress would be nice.

I'm thinking I will take a trip. Jen said she found tickets on Southwest for $157 to Colorado. I can do that and I have a 4 day weekend coming up if I can still take it when it gets here. I'm also thinking I will pick a random spot on the map and maybe drive somewhere just me for the weekend. I don't know where to go but I know that I want to do it all by myself. I don't want to visit with anyone, I just want to go somewhere and get away from the stress of it all.

I am looking at school again. I'm hoping to start sometime between now and fall. I know that's a broad range but I really need my divorce to be final before I can start again. I'm looking forward to it even though I don't know for sure what I want to be when I grow up.

I am also going to start reading scriptures twice a day again like I should have been all along. My goal is to read the BOM by the end of the year. I'm starting and since it is here, I'm going to do it.

I decided today that I will be open to any new situations and I am going to try and make the best out of what I have to deal with. My schedule definitely sucks but I was talking to someone tonight who told they are willing to work around it and if someone else is willing I should be too, right?

So, I'm good. I'm determined. You are going to see the old Jackie come out minus the anger. :) I will show him that he doesn't control my life anymore. I do and I'm going to do a good job of it!

1 comment:

danwrongway said...

You can be who you want to be. If that makes any since. I love you, babe just the way you are just like me.