Tuesday, September 30, 2008

I've come to realize....a Survey of sorts...

1. I've come to realize that my car... is really super cute!
2. I've come to realize that my job...sucks but I love the people.
3. I've come to realize that when I'm driving...I sing really loud
4. I've come to realize that I need...to stop obsessing.
5.I've come to realize that I have lost... a lot of opportunities because of my last relationship.
6. I've come to realize that I hate it when...I put effort into something and get no response.
7. I've come to realize that if I'm drunk...I lose my clothes.
8. I've come to realize that money... isn't everything.
9. I've come to realize that certain people.... will never understand how to make a relationship work.
10. I've come to realize that I'll always be... wonderful!
11. I've come to realize that my sister(s)... makes pretty babies!
12. I've come to realize that my mom... is more accepting than I thought!
13. I've come to realize that my cell phone ... doesn't ring from the one person I need to hear from and it isn't who you think it is.

14. I've come to realize that when I woke up this morning... my back was hurting.
15. I've come to realize that last night before I went to sleep...I wanted to cuddle with a certain someone.
16. I've come to realize that right now I am thinking.....that it didn't bother me at all to see Cliff with someone else.
17. I've come to realize that my dad...loves me more than I thought.
18. I've come to realize that when I get on Myspace... I always have too much to respond to.
19. I've come to realize that today...sucked ass except for a few times when I had contact with my someone.
20. I've come to realize that tonight... ended well as I got to hold Abby.
21. I've come to realize that tomorrow I will... work.
22. I've come to realize that I really want to...be in a relationship again instead of "dating."
23.I've come to realize that the person who is most likely to repost is....I dunno.
24.I've come to realize life...has handed me lemons and I've made lemonade.
25. I've come to realize that this weekend...is going to be awesome and I am soo excited!
26.I've realized the best music to listen to when I am upset...is not country.
27. I've come to realize that my friends...are always there for me no matter what it is.
28. I've come to realize that this year...has been really difficult for me in a lot of ways but I have overcome everything.

Monday, September 1, 2008

Here's the deal.

I'm tired of being talked about. I'm tired of people thinking that I don't try to take care of my responsibilities. I want to do things for Abby and I feel it is my place to do so when she needs something. I know everybody doesn't realize the bills that I have. Here are the ones I am willing to share with you: Rent, car payment, insurance, cell phone, cable/internet/phone, electric, food, general's flea stuff. Everything else is MY business and it doesn't matter. I'm sorry that I don't do things the way everybody else wants me to do them. All I can say is that I have to live my life, you don't. I know people care and that's great but why do you have to tell me the best way to do things? We've all made mistakes and when you were making yours, I didn't jump in and tell you that you were messing up. I let you make them because that is the only way you learn and there are things I see as wrong that others don't and vice versa.

I have a request. Instead of talking between everyone thinking I don't know ya'll are doing it, please just come to me and have a conversation with ME instead. You will find that I'm not the bitch everyone makes me out to be. I love ya'll and I appreciate ya'll but if you have to talk about me, then just go away and leave me alone and I'll do this all on my own.