It's 20 Hail Mary's for you!

<------ Click to play along! Confession time!

• Well, I have a lot to confess and I don't have a theme which brings me to my first one.
• I need to get more organized. I bought all kinds of things last week to help with that and I'm taking it all back this week because I'm not going to use it.
• I need to get better about studying my scriptures.
• My heart is breaking for Britney and the pain she is feeling for her Mom right now.
• Suicide is the most heartwrenching thing for a family to deal with and I hope I never have to with my immediate family.
• I'm still sick a little, and even though I sound better and for the most part, feel good, I'm still ugh.
• I think General is depressed.
• I'm scared to death of my new schedule of being at work at 6:30 in the AM.
• I would love to sleep all day and then go to work but my friends need me at night so I'm trying to be there.
• I'm going to the Temple Saturday.
• It feels like I haven't been in months and it hasn't been near that long.
• I still can't remember everything and it drives me crazy. I would kind of like to go in Birmingham.
• Blueberry bagels and regular cream cheese? I'll pass next time but thanks!
• My facial hair is worse than a man's. Anyone want to donate to my fund to have it removed? Let me know and I will start a donation center.
  

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Abby Cait, you're awesome!

I just love her. I love to cuddle with her, play with her, and I even love to cry with her. She has my heart and every day with her is a better day.

I love him.

Here are some recent pictures of General. I'm horrible about uploading pics but in my defense he doesn't sit still long enough to get many good ones.

So, General turned 4 in April and I just got the pics uploaded. I'm a bad doggy mother. He got new toys, gourmet treats and a night with his momma uninterrupted. We've been through a lot together and I couldn't be more thankful for him and the fact that he doesn't judge me. I got him when he was 3 months old and we've been together ever since. We've been through a divorce and several moved in his 4 years but we're happy and healthy and I'm determined to better us further so he has his own yard one day and maybe a human brother or sister even. It's a far, distant dream but it's ours and we dream big in General's house!

Confession time...

1. I think I'm trying to do too much and that's why I've been sick so much lately.
2. I never used to get sick when I was younger but my sister did, and it made me always fake it and stay home. My mom knew I'm sure but it would always get me a day with my grandmother which was awesome.
3. The first time I stayed home "sick" and was by myself all day, I was 8. There is no way you could do that now. When I was married, I never let Shay stay by herself until she was about 12. It was partly her and partly the crazies that come out to play far too often.
4. I'm sitting here with kleenex shoved up my nose.
5. My entire body is sweating and I feel too bad to get up and do anything about it.
6. I'm praying for weekends off on the next shift bid at work. Maybe that way, I can stop being sick on Saturday.
7. I hope that I'm able to stay all day and just deal but I already feel like going home and I'm not even there yet.
8. I wish I could work from home.
9. I'm thankful sometimes not to have kids so that I can just take care of me and not have to trudge on because this way, I get to gripe and moan all day long and it's ok.
10. I need my Mommy.
    

If I wasn't selfish...

• I would rehome General to someone who has more time for him because I'm doing him a disservice with always being gone. I love him though and we've been through sooo much together. He is the only reason I've made it where I am and that we aren't living in a box somewhere.
• I would want to do more for other people. In the recent floods of Nashville, there were so many opportunities to help out. I was only willing to do the demolition (I had to work through the entire clean-up process) and now it's done and I don't want to help anymore. I do want the t-shirt that you get for helping out though.
• I would answer my phone when I know that people need me. Don't take that wrong but there are times that I just can't be there for you because I'm being there for me...especially if it's after midnight.
• I would think about the things I say before I say them. Alas, I will hurt your feelings in a heartbeat to say what I need to say. I don't do it to be mean but if the world was always telling you what you want to hear, are you really going to have any ounce of reality? I am reality. Deal.
• With all of that being said, I do love people and try to be tactful with the things I say and I do help out when I'm needed but I want to be one of those people who can do it at the drop of a hat. I wish it worked that way. Oh, and General? He's my baby and I try so hard to make sure that he is taken care of in every way. Right now, I'm wondering if the best thing would be to get a cat or another dog for him to have as a pet? I don't know. I'm gone a lot and he needs company. I really *DON'T* want a litterbox but he looooves cats. Ugh. I hate being a grown-up.

My First Confessional

So I've been following this really fun blog for awhile and every Friday she does a confessional so I thought I would participate.

• My birthday was this week and I only turned 28 but I'm petrified of 30.
• I have a crush on a man that I can't shake and I can't do a thing about it!
• I feel like a school girl again.
• I love my dog...
• Maybe a little too much.
• I am in love with the "Love comes Softly" movies lately.
• I really don't have any inspiration to go back to school because all I really want to do is to get married again and stay home and raise babies.
• I think I'm going to lose my job sometime soon.
• I see in black and white. It is either is or it isn't....there is no inbetween.
• That causes a lot of issues for other people and makes me have to explain myself all of the time.
• I am absolutely, totaly and completely, 100% in love with Abigail Caitlyn. She is just like her Aunt Jackie and her momma hates it!
• I think that's why it is so fun!

Happy Birthday to me!

I'm old now. Dang it! I want a time machine and I will take my dog with me thanks.

The end.

Drink. Pee. Repeat.

OH MY GOODNESS! Downtown Nashville was crazy insane tonight with people that, most of which (such as ourselves) should have stayed home. Apparently ever year for the 4th of July, they put on a big fireworks show. I had no interest in going and Jen didn't either. Mikal cooked on the grill, I played with Abby, and then after dinner since they had fireworks, Mikal shot them off. Abby liked them and clapped during and after they were over and all was right with the world. We so should have left it at that but that's just not the kind of people we are. Jen and I were raised so that if you could possibly go for a drive and look at the stupid people, you should do so by all means. What you shouldn't do, is join them.

Lesson learned as I turned down 4th and Commerce in stead of staying strait on Church. We were literally stopped for about 20 minutes not moving at all. I had a conversation with a man that was turning the opposite way we were sitting still for so long. Oh, and what I forgot to say is that we even got there too late for the fireworks so we didn't even get a show out of it. Well, not that kind of show. We got to see a lot of idiots with flashing lights on their heads, people with stars and stripes on their tapered pants. Shoot, I forgot to tell that guy that he got a phone call. Dang it. If anyone sees him, the message was that the 80's called and wants the pants back. As if that wasn't enough for one person though, he had the classiest shirt. It said, "Drink. Pee. Repeat." I'm sure his mother is proud.

Even though we had to go way out to BFE to get home and I wasted so much gas, it was a good time and something different to experience. Everyone that knows me knows that my car gets like 2mpg and when we went down, I had about a quarter of a tank. I'm not parked safely at home and it's allllmost on the E! Are you freaking kidding me?! I'm so glad to be home and in the comfort of my pj's with G curled up beside me licking his butt.

This is an awesome life and I'm grateful for it. We can all thank a soldier for having the freedoms that we have to wear the stupid crap we wear and being safe to drive (or sit) on roads and not have to worry about the government rolling up and down them on tanks while praying we can make it home just one more day to see our family. I'm thankful for the men and women who Honor, Serve, and Protect us and with this, I bid you a good night.

Sweet dreams, everyone.